Have been thinking a lot about the two lately, as gyro teacher updates on Orcas draws near, and as yet another year has passed and I have done no classes since last year, and not gone to Florida to get my certification taken care of.
As I was on my way to class yesterday — to take, not teach, obviously — it dawned on me that often I have plenty of motivation to do things, but I don’t always have a clear intention that guides that motivation. I know my motivation behind doing the teacher training: I like learning, and I like moving at a deep level, and I like sharing learning, and hearing what other folks who are learning and moving deep are learning/experiencing. I have great motivation! Curiosity! But what I am doing, what I want to do, what I am going to do with all that once the motivation has carried me for a while, what my intention is in getting teacher training is… not clear. I don’t have the kind of space I would need in my head to take on teaching classes, much less realistically in my schedule. So… curiosity is driving, and I guess my intention is simply the exploration and sharing of that curiosity.
I have been thinking of doing a 40 day yoga practice (might go longer, might not), and I’ve been procrastinating starting it. Too tired or too many potential interruptions or am/can I mix in gyro & PT (yes, of course I can!) or lazy don’t wannas or can’t find something I want to do/or plan out a little ahead… Silliness. But there it is. In this case, I have intention, but not motivation. Well, I even have motivation, it’s just not yet sufficiently compelling, apparently.
Things will eventually sort themselves out. Or not.